What Can I say?

Recently, I have found myself to be quite down and out trying to take care of everyone except myself and I now realize that maybe that isn't such a good thing. It's ended up with an eternal prescription of Prozac and Xanax at my finger tips. What amazes me is the list of side affects.

Here are Prozac's: Side Effects

And Xanax: Side Effects

Prozac has a side affect of insomnia? Great thing to give to an insomniac! It can cause anxiety and suicidal thoughts? I thought it was suppose to get rid of both those symptoms.

With Xanax it can cause weight gain. Great for a chubby girl with Type 2 Diabetes just what I need! It also makes you uncoordinated, irritable and drool. All things that I definitely don't need help with I do just fine on my own! I took half of the minimum dose at 4:30pm on a Monday due to panic attacks. I didn't get over the loopy feeling until Wednesday afternoon. This is not an answer. It's just numbing the problem instead of dealing with it.

You may be wondering what in the world I'm getting at. Well, why is that I can get a hold of two drugs that are such heavy hitters that in my opinion they should be considered pretty heavy duty narcotics so easily yet I can't get my hands on prescription marijuana which I think is way less harmful? I know people that have scripts for medicinal pot for anxiety and when they have a panic attack, one tiny hit, they are affected for about one to two hours, panic attack gone and they are completely functional again. Not 48 hours later? It's not right. It's because the government couldn't figure out how to make money off of it. Well, if they follow after California, they could. You noticed Cali hasn't been complaining about their budget so much since they implemented the medicinal marijuana cafe's? Yeah, you get the picture. Why don't they just solve the problems and give easy access and a choice? I'm not even or ever have been a stoner. It's just that if someone that is in chemo can eat food after hitting a pipe instead of vomiting non-stop and being in so much pain, I'm all for it. What do you say?